(VITAMIN GIRL AT FOLLOW YOUR HEART)
= 8-4:30 M-Th = 8hrs x $10hr = $80/day x 4d/w = $320/week
$320 x4weeks = $1280 per month!
thats $15,360 a year!
and thats just four days a week! my day job… I could totally have a second job on the side… i mean i do intend to keep my job at SunLife for weekends and maybe even after 4:30pm..
I really do want this vitamin job at Follow Your Heart…
You know, for a little, i was thinking i really want to get back to teaching kids.. which is still the case! I do have a yearning in my heart to work with kids! however, I feel like i need to tend to myyyy needs first. i need to find stability. i need to be independent.
listening to norah jones… cooking with the fam and dads friends from texas… good vibin…
after some negative ego stuff whirling roun my head from about 11am-7pm, this feels good….
around 7pm i decided i shouldn’t feel pressured for anything… I’m at where I’m at and this is where I’m at… and amen for that..
after thinking feeling hoping i could change/progress quickly enough to get back together with echo, i just sort of hit a wall today and decided… for what? for who? its been giving me so much anxiety and making me feel pressured. every time, i do this to myself! this is the fourth time… i lose myself in the midst of trying to “find myself for him”… when i find myself, it can’t be for anyone but me. or maybe the people I’m serving..
like right now… norah jones mellowing out our warm home… texas accents charming our way through sharing cutting boards and trading stories…
being myself isn’t so hard after all…
i need to chill out!
I’m starting to realize how much its been manifesting itself in my body too… for example, the way i hitch my arms behind my shoulder blades and then my wings are all knotted up… I’m letting that go…
everyone at the shala was asking about it last week… by everyone i mean Pat Sperry asked and massaged me and since I left early bc i was self conscious about it, Arjuna texted me later and admitted he could tell “theres proof of the release”
i need to endure this uncomfortable period so i can get over the hill and to the greener side…
another bad habit i have is pulling my hips back and curling my tailbone under. instead, the hips should be forward, butt back.
let go let go let go
I NEEEEED to write to remember why i do the things ins doing!